Wednesday, January 1, 2014

2014 New Resolution

It's 2014 already, perhaps this blog might only have a proper post once every year, which would probably be just my new year resolutions. Well, lets have a recap on last year's resolution:


"1) To pick up what I've left off the previous years.

-Dance
-Wushu

2) To practice hard in order to make it back into competitions for wushu in 2013 & to achieve an Aerial by June/July 2013

3) To get distinction for Diploma for Guzheng

4) To improve my pipa skills in order to make it for NAC 2014

5) To practice Erhu & Dizi in order to be able to make it into NAC 2014 as well

6) To watch my diet and to achieve 52~54kg by August 2013

7) To improve 2.4km timing to 11min

8) To re-organize my timing in order to find time to learn from SiGung

9) To not give up and make this band a successful one"

Looking back, that's quite an ambition, today even though I have not managed to accomplish all my resolutions, but I am proud to say I've accomplished a lot.

1) Half done. Picked up Wushu.
2) Half done. Took part in competition and won 2nd.
3) Failed. (Despite failing, it was not entirely my fault. So I guess I'm ok with that.)
4) Doesn't seem like I'm getting there, but I've definitely improved in Guzheng skills. Will be attempting NAC for Guzheng this year.
5) Probably not going to happen.
6) Well, sometimes you win, sometimes you lose. I did get fitter in Tekong, but all was screwed up back in MINDEF. I guess I'll keep this plan for my post-ORD achievement.
7) Accomplished a 10:30 timing.
8) I guess since it's come to this, I can drag it a little while longer till I ORD.
9) Well, I'm working on music theory, it's still something~

I'd give myself a pretty strong 7/10.

I guess now it's time for this year's New Year Resolution. I know that it is going to be a forecasted shit year for me, but I just have to do what I can while I still can. So here goes (starting with last year's remaining goals):

1) Pick up Dance

2) Achieve an Aerial

3) Distinction in Diploma Guzheng

4) NAC for Guzheng

5) Achieve 54kg by the end of 2014

6)Continue learning from SiGung

7) Compose songs and make the band successful

-(Start of original 2014 resolutions)-

8) Get into SUTD or any of the other 3 big local universities

9) Find ways to make a living while studying

10) Get an Hons GPA (doesn't matter which roll)

11) Attain Red-White Belt by 2014

12) Get my driving license

13) Pick up Japanese

14) Learn Qi Gong

I guess that's about it for this year. Much lesser than last year in terms of new resolutions, but because of the upcoming situation, the most important things will be much harder to achieve but still will be an unimpressive feat, probably. Even though nobody reads this blog, I still can't say certain things right here.

But, I still have to leave an encoded note to myself:
-CBW (B-Peg)
-Nirv
-Stitch

For everything, there must be a counter-balance, that is the law of the world and karma. Stay strong, I know I can pull everything together. Get through this shit storm once and for all.
All the best to myself.

posted by hahaha @ 10:06 PM



Thursday, September 5, 2013


http://www.mediafire.com/?lrz9zxrh56diigb

posted by hahaha @ 10:53 PM



Sunday, January 20, 2013

2013 New Year Resolutions

Its nearing the end of January 2013 as I sit here to type this post. It's abit late, but I guess it's better late than never. It took me awhile, but I have finally got my New Year resolutions for 2013. I believe because it is late therefore it shows all the more thought I've put into this year's resolutions. It's not going to be just any random new year resolutions like every other year and every other person. So without further ado, here is my resolutions for the year:

1) To pick up what I've left off the previous years.

-Dance
-Wushu

2) To practice hard in order to make it back into competitions for wushu in 2013 & to achieve an Aerial by June/July 2013

3) To get distinction for Diploma for Guzheng

4) To improve my pipa skills in order to make it for NAC 2014

5) To practice Erhu & Dizi in order to be able to make it into NAC 2014 as well

6) To watch my diet and to achieve 52~54kg by August 2013

7) To improve 2.4km timing to <11min font="font">

8) To re-organize my timing in order to find time to learn from SiGung

9) To not give up and make this band a successful one

It probably seems like a lot of things to do, but a number of things can be done concurrently. So these are my New Year Resolution for 2013. Wish me luck guys, I'll need it.

posted by hahaha @ 10:17 PM



Tuesday, June 12, 2012

disappointment

Feel so miserable once again.... thought I'd give it a shot but guess I was too late yet again, maybe it's not meant to be? Or was I just too complacent? Self-Denial? Once bitten twice shy? Overconfidence to hide my true cowardly self? Another opportunity probably will not be possible anymore, time to move on I guess? No use staying in the past.
I need to get myself together once again.

I need to start constantly reminding myself:
1) Who am I?

2) What is my purpose?
3) What are my principles?


Remember. Do not falter. This is a test of faith. I must persevere no matter how hard it gets. It's only been 3 years worth of emotions. It's not too late to let go. I must move on. For my friends, and no doubt for my family. Disappointment is no doubt unavoidable, but I must stay strong and not let my head down. I will move on. I WILL move on. I WILL MOVE ON!!!

posted by hahaha @ 12:53 AM



Friday, April 27, 2012

Test Mix

http://www.mediafire.com/?po6v1hk21cyrse7
Test Mix V2.2

posted by hahaha @ 6:25 PM



Thursday, September 1, 2011

thoughts

no matter how hard i try to type things out in words, it jus never seem to come out the way i really feel so, especially about u

don't be sad it's no longer yours, be glad that it was actually once yours.

live life to it's fullest. if it ain't meant to be, it ain't

i'll probably be here till you finally realize how hard it is, i can't gurantee my actions after that

believe that the world still revolves around me no matter how tough life is, cos life is probably jealous that it revolves around me.

posted by hahaha @ 2:04 AM



Friday, August 26, 2011

Code of life:

I live strongly by a certain code in life. What people may call stupid and stuff for kids or for the "lowly educated". To me, this is a code of brotherhood, a code which bonds people together as though they were real blood brothers. Something the "educated" or "high class" will not be able to understand, only we "naive peasants" would abide to. To me, it's a code that brings harmony and peace to humanity.

I guess you probably didn't realize, but you have breached this particular code. There's a difference between being, "logically and morally" correct, and being "socially correct". You probably feel that I'm just using you nothing more than a mere tool. This is where you are wrong. Let me tell you this, I greatly appreciate what you've done, but if this is how it goes, it's how it'll go. I would've apologized, but you of all people should know your own arrogance, I may be "logically and morally" wrong, and I was willing to accept that and apologize, the only problem was your cockiness and certain illogical reasoning. With that, let me tell you, you may be "logically and morally correct" standing firm on your own principles, you may succeed with your career and ambitions, but the world is all about social etiquette, and being "socially" correct, you may stand to gain in a business being "logcially and morally" correct, but you'll probably die a lonely man. You probably will not have anyone to support you in times of crisis when you come across greedy people(of course sad to say there are black sheeps everywhere) who lives along the same code as I do.
I do not expect an apology, neither will I GIVE an apology, but I believe, everybody deserves another chance, you and me both alike, this choice is up to you. If you just want to walk away, go ahead, there's nothing I can do. But if you would like to continue this friendship, all that it will take is from after reading this post is just a simple text containing a simple greeting something like, "Hi". Should you want to continue this friendship, I would gladly explain everything and this "social logic".

I DO know I was in the wrong, but if such arrogance is what you would give, then, I rather live with my mistakes.

P.S. The code which I live strongly by is these 2 simple words: "义气"

posted by hahaha @ 9:53 PM



Monday, July 11, 2011


想爱一个人之前,先要学怎么爱自己

因为如果不会珍惜自己,怎么珍惜对方呢?

别为了寂寞或伤心才把他收下来当代替品

大家说如果你有了她,你实在是幸福

可是,自己得想想一下

跟着你她会不会幸福?

别为了自己的幸福而抛弃了对方的幸福

这样子也已经不算是真正的幸福了

因为,想爱一个人,

不是为了自己的幸福而是为了双方的幸福,没有双方的幸福,也至少给对方幸福

这样子世界才会变得更幸福更美好,

因为,总有一天,你命运注定的另一半会看到你的无私的性格而跟你在一起,

最终,写出一个完美的结局。

posted by hahaha @ 2:25 AM



Tuesday, May 31, 2011

afraid.

its gonna be the 3rd day now. please please don't let me down...

posted by hahaha @ 1:02 AM



Saturday, May 7, 2011

again?

I'm feeling so left out from your life...

posted by hahaha @ 12:52 AM



Saturday, April 23, 2011

confused.

i wanna step back to reality. but everytime i do, smth pulls me back into the land of dreams. i should stop acting like dis. shouldnt cling so tightly on such ideals. i need to pull myself tgt. i dun wan it to end up tt way. i'm scared. i'm confused. i'm lost. i need a sign. i'm still wondering if i made the right decision... wad should i do? gahhhh.

posted by hahaha @ 1:32 PM



Sunday, April 17, 2011

haiz

suddenly feeling so heartbroken...

posted by hahaha @ 12:38 AM



Sunday, March 27, 2011

time's not on my side

gawd )= im not sure if i can make it on time >_<" time isnt on my side, left 1 day to finish dis up, n latest to finish the final touches by tues >___<" CHIONG AH!!! RAWR!!!! if onli i jus had abit more time to practice it )x

posted by hahaha @ 10:40 PM



Monday, March 14, 2011

lost

once again... i feel so lost... not sure wad i should do anymore... cant even help frens when they need it... jus troubling them wif stuff... dun even noe wad i can do to help her either... jus sit there, read their messages. do nothing about it. feel helpless...
sry... i shouldnt be acting like tt... but i rly cant help it...
im the one tts useless...

posted by hahaha @ 11:42 AM



Saturday, February 19, 2011

GAHHH

OMGWTF!! GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHY IN THE BLOODY FUCKING HELL M I SO STRESSED!!!!!!!! JUS FEEELING FUCKING STRESSED TO THE MAX!!! GAHHHHH!!!! I WANNA SHOUT MY LUNGS OUT!! OMG? Y? Y? Y?! ROAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!
GGGGGGGGGGGGGAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
FUCK THIS FUCKING FEELING!!!!! GAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WANNA RIP STUFF INTO SHREDS!!!!!!! I WANNA BEAT THE FUCK OUT OF SOMETHING!! ANYTHING WOULD DO!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY??????????????????????

HUIRESH TUIESY493 YT8WH89YT538 YHT4YWHATY5 YHWTYH834YHT6A TYH743EYTU ESHT4WHTUIEHT8932 Y5T4UWTHIUy*(@y$ &*#y*(qy%#*u&$ *b#yhtraw uy#quhr893YQ59* yrh38Y589 3ytr89Yh 3h3uiqrh89%$^&#*^$#$%^&*(!@!@^&*@!#^&*(@#(&*&#@&@*!()!!

posted by hahaha @ 1:28 AM



Monday, December 13, 2010

...

everytime when things are finally starting to get better, it's always almost time for us to walk our own seperate paths. i wonder why. is god toying with me? realized a few things. realized why i supposedly call myself "keesiao" n act so. didnt realize it till i heard somebody saying tt about me. insecurity. i laugh to cover the insecurity. i laugh to hide the lonliness. i laugh to forget the sadness. i laugh not cos i want to. its cos i want to forget all my worries even if its just temporarily. i want to be "happy-go-lucky", at least thats what i'm trying to force myself to be. sadly, the luck doesnt come along with the forced smiles. i'm just a nobody. im glad tt my awesome senior gave me the position of SL, at least, i could do something before becoming a nobody. made my life at least abit more enjoyable cos im not a nobody. the moment i step down is the time i officially become a nobody in CO. n it's almost time. keeps screwing things up. maybe i shouldnt even go to taiwan for the competition. maybe i'll just be a burden. but maybe at least aftr dis 1 yr of hardwork. i should jus be selfish one last time. its not like anybody is gonna rmb me much. probably wun even rmb me at all. aftrall, im jus a nobody, an imperfect nobody. n once again, im entertaining myself with a blog nobody reads.

To: Myself
your gonna go back into being a nobody once again,
please enjoy yourself before that (:
it'll be anytime soon.

nites~ (:

posted by hahaha @ 11:58 PM



Saturday, September 18, 2010

great day

its been a great day today, (X it was about time i had one, despite the setbacks, it felt like the camp was successful =D even though i regret not ending it wif a blast, due to the lack of time )= but, at least, it rly was good (x every story has to have its own ending aftrall :D

aftr tt, everything went quite nicely, a number of things happened (;
glad for those to happen, only, i wonder if these will cause me to change my previous decision i set my heart to.

workshop helped me appreciate wad i alrd have even more (= today has been quite a fruitful day, thanks to whoever that made my day even though u may not know its u :D n even though prolly nobody is reading dis blog, but w/e, its for me to state wad i like (:

but, cos of dis, i'm now quite confused, i wonder wad should i do nxt.
but wadeva the decision is, i shall work hard for wadeva tts coming up nxt!!
GO ME!!!

FIGHTING!!!

peace out peeps~ X)

posted by hahaha @ 2:53 AM



Tuesday, August 17, 2010

out of place

i feel so out of place. am i really just being at somewhere i don't belong?
should i continue what i'm doing?
i don't feel the slightest respect i'm suppose to have despite the shit i'm doing.
maybe i'm just not wanted, just a temporary tool which is soon to be thrown away after the newly anticipated one comes in.
maybe i should just quit?
but why do i continue despite this?
am i too responsible?
or is it because i'm afraid of that something?
why is my weakness so great?
so many questions, no anwsers.
can somebody answer just some of my questions?
what will happen if i stopped everything now?
will it even leave the slightest impact on anyone?
should i stop trying to follow the main flow?
and start going the path which seems most smooth?
it may be the path i want yet the path which i fear the most.
yet again, theres something else i can't decide on once again.
should i try and choose one? or should i just ignore and continue onwards?
what if i regret doing any?
probably ignoring and continuing onwards would be the best solution, avoiding any jeopardy to anything since i'm probably out of place.
eventually, i'm no better than anybody in any aspect.
maybe i'm just a failure in life.
maybe that's why i feel so, or probably am out of place everywhere, especially there...
hope somebody out there will provide me with answers i need.
but whatever, not like anybody ever reads this blog anyway.
afterall, it's mine, if i'm out of place, no doubt will this blog be out of place as well.

posted by hahaha @ 1:48 AM



Thursday, July 15, 2010

zzz

この餓鬼!早く消える!!てメはとても駄目の虫だ!!俺様が嫌い! やっぱりテメがいないは最高だ! テメを死ねば好いと思うだ!!

皆が大嫌い!!絶対皆を殺す!!! ARGHHH!!

posted by hahaha @ 1:06 AM



Sunday, July 11, 2010

Solitary

a masked face, emitting the sound of laughter, overflowing with tears, tears of sadness and agony. each teardrop filled with pain and sorrow. each of its movement is fuelled by anger and hatred. all resulted by a foolish mistake i have made once again. i had forgotten the feeling of solitude. i got too caught up in my delusive life which seemed much better than it was previously. but the moment the illusions are over, reality strikes back. stepping back into the solitude, once again i have forgotten the feeling of solitude. it feels all so unfamiliar, yet too familiar. the blinding pitch black darkness, the deafening silence, the never-ending corner. all these reminding me. friends are merely temporary. they come and go as and when they like. true friends arent real. they will still eventually go. afterall, we are all nothing but tools to each other's success or failures. we all walk at different paces. eventually, the gap will be seen. our limits will be reached. we will no longer be able to wait or catch up. everybody for themselves. when you trust them most, they abandon you for someone else. they never keep to what they say. they will not help you when you need it most. they'll watch your dreams shatter and plunder into the never-ending depths of nothingness. a lesson that i must remember. its only a matter of time before the cycle repeats again. well, at least for me i guess. but who knows? maybe it's happening only to me. entering a brand new environment, with nobody i know. forcing me once again to accept the fate that I am forever alone. I am a nobody. Nobody is perfect. Therefore I am perfect. But. You can't be perfect if you are a nobody. Therefore, I am merely a Nobody and I'm NOT perfect. Just stop trying to get me out of the solitude I belong in. It'll only harm me in turn. You may not care. But I do. Just Keep Out Of My Life. It Exists For Me To Be Alone.

posted by hahaha @ 12:29 AM



Tuesday, May 11, 2010

everything comes with a price

everything comes with a price.

yes.

everything.

even helping somebody.

each price is a consequence.

which punishment should i choose to help somebody?

everything comes with a price, but that's not all.

it comes with a risk on top of a price.

stay close to them like how they want but in turn to take away what they really need?

or help them to get what they really need and want in the shadows in turn of drifting away?

"Its not about arguing with somebody with your own POV, but it's about having someone else reassuring you your POV is correct. Its not about how people think of you. Its about the people who supports you." this is a little quote i said to somebody a long time ago.

this somebody has remembered it till now.

"Its not about arguing with somebody with your own POV, but it's about having someone else reassuring you your POV is correct. Its not about how people think of you. Its about the people who supports you. always believe in yourself. cause there will definitely be someone who cares. because if theres nobody, think again. i'll be there."

this is what it should truly say.

everything has a limit.

"even limitless has a limit on how limitless it is." a quote from a friend.

i'm human. i have my limits. i need to breathe. please don't treat me like i'm unbreakable.

i may have a huge tolerance. but eventually, everything wears and tears.

you may feel pathetic. you may feel your life sucks.

you may feel that you have the worst life amongst your peers.

but please remember. we have to breathe too. its always good to lend a listening ear.

even if you hate to do so. we have been there for you. for a change.

take a step back and look at the picture again.

you may feel life sucks more than anything in the world right now.

but what did you tell yourself the last time?

against all odds.

going against everything.

enduring all those painful comments.

what was that for?

so that you can sit at a corner showering yourself with pity?

or is it so that you can do better and prove the other people wrong?

do you still want people to pity you?

or do you want people to see who you truly are?

somebody of capabilities far greater than they could possibly have.

but.

no matter how strong one is.

one will still have times where they need the care and encouragement of somebody.

that is something understandable.

we will still be here for you.

but.

always remember.

whatever you do. life still goes on.

you still have to accomplish your goals.

you can't be showered in pity all the time.

even if you wish so.

it's impossible.

cause. even pity has a limit.

so.

stop whining now and start doing something about it.

even if the world is against you.

i'll still be there to support you.

peace out.

posted by hahaha @ 12:00 AM



Monday, April 19, 2010

nabei

nabei... go anywhere on9 oso got smth tt annoys me... fml =.="
somebody save me frm dis torment -_-"

posted by hahaha @ 12:32 AM



Saturday, April 17, 2010

-fill in the blank-

Why are girls ever-so fragile?

posted by hahaha @ 11:39 PM



Tuesday, February 2, 2010

So i've learnt my lesson

I've learnt my lesson. always listen to the very 1st advice given from a long time ago, it'll make your life much better. the advice which i didnt heed from a long time ago was dis. "DTA JACKASS! DTA!!! THERE AINT ANYBODY IN THE WORLD YOU CAN TRUST BITCH!!"
with tt, i present to u a poem i suddenly got inspired to write:

Creature Within

Peace and tranquility within the deep dark night,
Lurks a creature lost from light.
Wandering under the dark blue skies,
Watching upon with its blood shot eyes.
Taking its time to befriend a prey,
Not even giving them the chance to hope n pray.
Believing that its their ray,the creature's heart turns to grey.
Seeking vegence with each step,
Bringing you one step closer to the chest.
Do not trick it or turn your back,
For it will get you for breaking the pact.
So its time for you to hope and pray,
That this creature is not to stay.
You won't know who it is,
So don't start making people pissed.

------------End-----------

thx for viewing.

posted by hahaha @ 10:45 PM



Thursday, December 24, 2009

Time to get serious

Its time for me to get serious. in wad way? every aspect peeps. i aint got no time to spare. be it academic or physical, its time to get serious. but the main purpose of dis post is to help motivate myself to accomplish my physical goals. so, i've got a long way so i better start now.




Objective #1: Improve Stretching

Objective #2: Lose weight


Goal:- To get waist size of 31 in 1 month's time (Current size: XXX[i shant tell]) ;D
- To accomplish front split in 1 month's time





Side track: Here's a cool update pic.






GOOD LUCK TO ME!!!




posted by hahaha @ 1:23 AM



Saturday, July 18, 2009

headhollows!!

HEADHOLLOWS!! HERE I COME!!!

posted by hahaha @ 12:16 PM



Wednesday, July 15, 2009

continued misery

for some reason, im still feeling damn down 2day. no mood to do no shit. i get pissed off by the slightest things even though i dun show it. wassup wif me? maybe its cos im lacking proper rest? lets hope tts the worst tt can happen to me. so, yea, short post, im gonna go sleep now.
nitz.
lets hope i get enuff sleep n i wun feel so emo anymore.
nitz all.
peace out.

posted by hahaha @ 12:48 AM



Monday, July 13, 2009


im still stressed out. for some reason, i dun feel like going home when im stressed out, i jus dunno n dun feel like facing my parents. its times like dis i wish i had somebody to support onto. but sadly, theres nobody available for me to lean on. it's jus nobody but myself...

is there anyone out there who can be my support?

posted by hahaha @ 11:23 PM



Sunday, July 12, 2009

stressed out

I am damn dead tired.

somebody save me frm dis torture. i lack of proper sleep. too much things too lil time. im barely keeping it thru the days by dunking down energy drinks to perk me up to go thru the day. too much mental stress. everyday is packed by activities. i wish i could take a PROPER break of jus a few days. cant time jus freeze for like a day or two jus for once? i have a feeling im gonna collapse anytime soon. maybe one of these days? i sense hatred towards me by ppl, i dunno if its true, but the stress is definitely getting to me. i think i made a few mistakes which i feel is minor which probably to them, is one mistake too much. if ur among those who read my blog, i apologize if i did smth wrong which i didnt realize.

can anyone do anything to help me? my mind seems to be breaking down. everynite im blasting songs which i amplify the bass into my ears. for those who dunno, i love the bass of songs, both the bass n bass guitars. well, their both still bass, so yea.

im probably overfeeding my body wif stuff tt contains stuff like caffeine, taurine and sugar. who noes? i may jus drop dead some day suddenly cos of dis.

so any good suggestions?

highly doubt so.

n to my previous post, i realized part of wad i wan in the future.

gonna stop blogging for the nite.

nitz all

peace out~

posted by hahaha @ 8:51 PM



Friday, July 3, 2009


i'm kinda shocked at myself. I have always known what i wanted in life. But when i was asked by my fren, "What do you want to achieve in life?" for some reason i was for a loss of words. i couldnt give him a definite answer, all i could say was wad probably everyone else wans "enjoy life without worrying about anything". so, wad isit tt i reali wanna achieve in life? at some pt i feel like my destiny is being forced onto me, i cant do things tt i realli wanna do, so, i'll be going army soon, den uni, den maybe up till PhD, so im probably work till i retire, wheres the fun in life doing tt?

i w a n n a d o s o m e t h i n g f r e s h.

i wanna do all the different types of arts. it gives life a meaning, not jus to be born => study => work => retire => die
tell me wheres the fun in tt?

wheres the fun in having a stable job? u'd probably working till u retire, i doubt u can enjoy ur life at 60+? try bungee jumping at 60? u'd probably die of heart attack


i dun wanna live a boring life, they always so "xian ku hou tian" literally meaning, 1st bitter den sweet, which means to work hard in the early part of life, n enjoy ur later part, but i wanna enjoy every part of my life, y cant i scroll down into a small scale of working hard, n enjoying later?

so wads the point in saying all of these? i dun reali noe jus tt somebody wanted me to update my blog, so here it is, i barely see much sense in posting though, so yea.


peace out~

posted by hahaha @ 1:06 AM



Sunday, May 31, 2009

Goodbye Casper



This post is in dedication to the late casper who has begun his new journey in the otherworld as of today, Sunday May 31st 2009. He may no longer be here, but he will always remain in our hearts. Let us put our hearts together and bid him farewell. He left us with many memories no matter wad it may be. His fighting spirit to live was something all of us should learn. Despite the fact that he had a stroke about 6 months ago and was suffering from some other things, he did not submit to death itself. He fought for his survival in this 6 months. Soon after he had the stroke, he slowly recovered till he was able to walk, despite being unable to walk properly, he continued walking and slowly recovered over the 6 mths. Even though he was not able to fully recover, he still continued struggling onwards through life. 6 months may seem short to most of you. but. when converted to dog years, he has been struggling for about 6 dog years. Imagine struggling with stroke for 6 years. Most people would have probably given up hope and just stop their recovery program, but this dog continued onwards without giving up. An animal who does not have any personal goals in life to achieve still fights on, for what purpose does he fight on for? The only thing that follows would be more suffering. But I strongly believe that he fights on for us. This dog shows us to perfect example of true courage. Some people out there might think that life is tough and are contemplating on ending your lives. Think again, even a dog can continue to fight for his life even though the suffering will continue. Are we humans inferior to even a dog? All of us must learn from his example, may his death be of in no vain, may we use him as an example, as a motivation to continue onwards with life. May he rest in peace.




He was about 20 human years old at the time of death. He did not give in to death, and just before he was put to sleep, he finally relaxed. Most probably knowing its his time to go.


May we all once again put our hearts together and pray for his enlightenment in the other world.




This will probably be my biggest regret in life, not taking enough photos of him, keeping more memories of him with me. Below are the only photos i took of him.


In loving memory of our beloved Casper.

posted by hahaha @ 8:38 PM



Friday, May 29, 2009

._."

i feel so stupid ._."

posted by hahaha @ 12:18 AM



Sunday, May 10, 2009

Twin~

ello~

4got to mention i met my long-lost-twin-sister at CO auditions in NYP :DD

its like damn cool :DD

imagine having somebody wif the same birthday as u :DD
pwnage~
apart frm having the same birthday, we're like quite similar at some pt :DD
n now, i shall now make her follow my path of the psychopath ~_~
time to teach her how to do psychotic things causing panick to the ppl arnd her ~_~

whoeva is arnd her, be afraid...
be VERY AFRAID!!!
MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!
cherish ur peace while i start to plan for my psychopathic lessons x3

posted by hahaha @ 11:37 PM



Tuesday, May 5, 2009

zzz

I'm starting to lose myself, everything seems to be screwing up, nth is going as planned, i cant seem to do anything rite. i hate myself. i keep hiding myself behind smiles. i needa start to focus. i need some help. i help ppl, but, y cant i help myself? at dis rate, i may jus collapse someday soon for eternity. maybe it'd be the best solution for my problems. n maybe not. dis maybe one of the last time i break i my code. a regret to break my code. regrets everyday. each day tt passes by is a regret. each day itself is a regret. can anybody save me? probably not. dis code is for the best. this shall be the last time i break it. happy, smiling n even blur on the outside. a heart filled wif sorrows,tears,anger n irritation on the inside. i needa clear my mind now before its over the limit. time for me to sleep. pray for me tt i get a solution for my problems once n for all when i wake up. or... maybe nvr to wake up again.
nitz all
peace out

posted by hahaha @ 11:50 PM



Saturday, March 14, 2009


Love missed<3.
work was tiring today.
Love too had tiring day yeah?!
tml i will be there i guess.
Love,Huggies and Misses..
Muacks!!

posted by hahaha @ 11:42 PM



Tuesday, March 10, 2009


woah..
thank you itzy for lending me the blog for this entry..
today got damn pissed with what happened in the skul..
omfg!~
people cnt be trusted at all..
i feel so fucked up..
this was what happend..
i used to be in a so called clique..
idk..
just one day suddenly i feel awkward with one of the member F..
is like a sudden barrier just appeared between me and F..
so i just sorta of like stop being tgt with them..
well,that was one of the reasons..
other reasons was that i wanna to concentrate on my studies and stop hanging out with them..
(they like to go out alot)..
i feel that it sorta of wasting time as i can use that time to revise and study..
whateva were the reasons,i still do consider them as friends..
just that when i was not tgt with them of cos ppl will ask why not with them and so on right?
they asked we quarrelled or what..
MY REPLY WAS NO!JUST THAT THERE WAS AN AWKWARDNESS BETWEEN ME AND F..
so for about a week i hanged out with this group of ppl..
esther,elieen and ely..there were another 2..dorathy and kathleen..
so is like i only tell this so called prob to the 1st three ppl..
the other two just pop in to listen..
i dun really care cos it's not as if i am badmouthing about F..
gosh knows..within the one of them go twist my story and put words into my mouth and told F..
well guessed it? idk who is the real culprit is..
but for sure is not the 1st three people i mentioned there..
well,today when to skul then sorta of shock to see dorathy with one of the clique member so close as she never talk to him b4..
so i know that smth fishy is going on..
true enough,ltr F smg say that why tell ppl we quarrelled..
it's like wtf..
she came to accused me then i got dulan..
just reply her to get her facts rights..
then she got so pissed that she show her temper to ppl..
whateva is it..
it doesnt amused me..
i just ignored and went for break with esther and elieen..
then while having lunch she just smged with one smg full of shyts and start using vulgars..
woah..
it seriously irritated me lots..
i replied her nicely alright..
it got so worse that i just said to her that she got dyspeptic problem..
gosh..
dunno what is that meaning then add more prob agn..
lucky for me..i got my papa keeping my cool..
hahas..
after that i went to look for dorathy as she said dorathy told her that i was the one who told her we quarrelled..
omfg..can imagine FUCKING CHILDISH?!!
while i was at dorathy table she and her clique came over to so called settle..
settle also settle in a childish way..
whatever it's i just wanna to say your opinion of me i dun care at all..
what i care is my abt my o's..gettin my life fixed..
and let me just say..
i absolutely regretted being a clique..
cos a clique dun fight nor quarrell within each other or have secrets within each other too..
why i say that?
cos my clique,we never fight at all..
we dun have secrets between us..
and i am proud of my clique and proud to be a clique with them=D
to my clique..
HANG OUT SOON!!!!
MISSES YOU GUYS LOADS!!
anw,just venting my anger..
there are more happening happened..
NOW I KNOW WHO ARE THE ONE WHO CAN KEEP THING AND WHO CNT..
hahas..
to itzy!~
itzy Love,thank you so much for the helping..
sorry keep trouble-ing itzy!!
feel so bad keep trouble-ing itzy T.T
pardon me yeah?=D Loves..

posted by hahaha @ 10:00 PM



Sunday, March 1, 2009

Bad dreams

been lacking sleep these few days
bad dreams
nuff said.
can barely keep myself awake.

posted by hahaha @ 10:26 AM



Wednesday, February 18, 2009

-nil-


hello all, happy reali reali belated valentine's day, didnt have time to blog.

heres a gift to all:

n i 4got wad i wanted to blog about, so nitz all ._."


posted by hahaha @ 2:36 AM



Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Just another post

1st things 1st! OMFGWTFBBQ!!! I GOT A STEEL SERIES 5H V2 HEADPHONES!!! OMFG!!! THX SOOOOO MUCH!!!
for those of u who dunno bout dis, go google, its gonna mindfuck u.



k, enuff of rejoicing, so i've got my posting, aftr much thinking n overthinking, i've finally made my final decision, so yea, gratz to me, cos i dun have to fucking think anymore. For the past few weeks(?) i believe im gonna ace every single thing im given, but just recently, part of reality fell on me. im suddenly beginning to doubt, will i be able to do it? a perfect score, isit possible? aftr much thinking, i believe i can do it! but, theres always some doubt, wad if i screw up by accident?
wad if i overdid things? trying to do things over my level, failing eventually due to the lack of technology, lack of information the world currently provides? im not trying to say im smart, but i believe im very innovative, sometimes i think too much. in the past, i tot of many things, all out of current technology we are all provided. i've forgotten a hell lot of things which i thought of. sometimes, i wanna learn much more, but the level im studying in, doesnt teach me sufficiently, it doesnt satisfy my desires, doesnt quench the thirst my curiousity gives me. y cant i be born in a time of much higher technology where my full potential can be shown?

for some reason, probably cos i've got too much times on my hands, i've started thinking alot, probably retribution for not thinking enuff in the past. i realized i changed alot since i was young, when i was young, i didnt noe anything, i didnt care for any precision, or more like i didnt noe precision, everything of my imagination was of no ressemblence to the things of the real world. rite now, i belive im way too practical. my creativity has been extinguished, but i believe it isnt fully extinguished n it can be relit. rite now, my imagination doesnt take me anywhere creative, but it takes me to the finest precision, even smaller than atoms itself. the figures i think of goes of to tons of decimal places. the images i think of, goes even smaller den of pixels.

ah well, i guess ppl do change, i do hope i do change back while retaining my level of understanding or even deeper.

haiz, was intending to watch breakout, but, FUCK! i was too slow, tix ALL SOLD OUT!!! noooo!!! T~T guess i should start planning ahead nowadays. haiz... hopefully can dl it nxt time ;DD

haha, each paragraph seems so random, totally off-topic to the last paragraph. i think im slimming down n getting a better figure o_O the pants which i wore seems looser O_o, the shirt tt shrank seems to be fitting me perfectly now. i shall continue working hard at my late-night training, doing kerropi, handstands, push ups, tuck jumps, punching(?) etc. hopefully in a few months, im gonna get a good figure ;DDD oh yea i rawk~ :D

sadly, still no news frm him yet T~T! i wan my DJ-ing classes T~T!!!

im kinda contemplating on wad i should be joining, a successful orchestra? or smth else which i've nvr tried out b4 n wans to try out n excel veh well? :D im stuck wif tons of questions nowadays. like i said, probably retribution for not thinking n planning ahead while i was younger >.<"

empty feelings fill me up once again, once in awhile, recently increasing >.>" wonder wad do i wan ._."

ah well, time for me to sleep :DD
nitz all~
peace out yo~~~

posted by hahaha @ 1:22 AM



Tuesday, January 27, 2009

New Year Resolution!!!



hey all, its been awhile since i last posted ya? in case some r wonderin, yea, i didnt suicide upon recieving my O's results. so, heres my new year resolution!!! :DDD


My New Year Resolution:


-To get into the course i want and top all my tests n exams if there are


-To save more money!! :DDD


-To recieve more ang pows for CNY!!! ANG POWS FTW!!! XDDD


-To excel in everything I'm gonna do dis yr!


-Never to let anyone down anymore!!!! xO!!!


-To learn DJ-ing!!! (hopefully it goes well n i get to learn!!!)


-To improve B-boying!


-TO WIN ABEL AND PRAVIN!!!


-TO BE ABLE TO BE ON PAR WIF YH AT WC III!!!!


-Be 10x better than I am now by the end of the year!!!


-TO BE MUCH FITTER!!!




==================END OF NEW YEAR RESOLUTION=============================






So some ppl may think some of these goals, or even all of these goals are impossible for me to achieve, but, even if nobody thinks I can do it! I BELIEVE I CAN DO IT!! WHAT MATTERS IS WHAT I THINK!!


i've finally gotten the wake-up call everybody has been talking about. imma changed man. its my turn to bloom. i will no longer be the person i am now. i m changing for the better.


Message to everybody: this message goes out to everyone, especially haters. watch your back. make sure ur not being used by. being decieved. take a closer look, somethings may not be wad it seems to be. to some ppl in specific although u may not noe im refering to u, or if u even read the blog. if u dun heed dis, the moment u notice it may be too late, all may be over.




thx all to those who has encouraged me aftr my dissappointment. although its a dissappointment, i dun think im gonna look back anymore, its impossible to stay in the past, everybody must move on sometime. to ppl who r dissappointed wif some things or another, ITS NOT OVER!!! theres always an alternative! dun give up!



<<<<<>
its a penguin for those unable to recognize!
i took it when it was already beginning to melt, so its not tt easy to see.

Moral of the story: Its never over! "BELIEVE IN THE ME WHO BELIEVES IN YOU!"
I AM CRYING MANLY TEARS NOW FOR SUCH AN INSPIRATIONAL POST!!! T___T

posted by hahaha @ 1:43 AM



Thursday, December 18, 2008

yes, im still alive...

havent blogged for awhile, for those of u wonderin, yea, im still alive n kicking, kinda sad ya? >_>"
ah well, have to live wif it, gonna change blogskin, needa do some re-coding for a new blogskin i found, sad siol
gettin tgt wif my lower pri frens, the last thing i expected was to catch up wif my lower pri frens, been awhile since i last seen them, some maybe ever since p5 onwards i didnt get a chance to see their faces again, so, 4A '02 class gathering, anyone wans it? probably in jan, pls tell the person settin dis thing up (not me) <_<">
nth much to say liao jus some major catching up to do
k all, i go sleep le
nitz~

posted by hahaha @ 2:11 AM



Thursday, December 4, 2008

emptiness

went to the arcade wif yl n pravin 2day, 1st went to j8 arcade, played house of dead 4, basketball thingy n daytona 4, den we went over to ang mo kio hub the arcade, went there, played daytona again o_O den yl played drums, aint gonna say wad happened, den played the ddr thingy, totally lamezzz, pravin chose the trainin 1 1st >_>" like wtf, den played again, played the arcade mode, got f, <_< wad can u expect frm a 1st-timer =X

aftr tt went over orchard, came back aftr 9.30, aftr tt, for some reason, started feelin empty, recently been feelin dis more frequently n more strongly each time. when i wanted to blog jus a moment ago, i stared at the blank page, mind went blank, felt so empty, wonder wads wrong. tears seemed to wanna flow out of my eyes, wonder y. each day, i feel like im drifitng further apart from smth impt, but i simply have no idea. these emptiness feels like a sorrow for somebody else. wad could be drifting away?
its about time i took some time off to start thinking. time to snap out of the trance n realize wads going on. its time to wake up. if not im gonna suffer more den ever. feelin so dead. i wish i could jus go off to the other world. i try my best to keep away the sad side of me away frm everybody, its tiring, i dun wan anyone to noe im sad. i dun wan anyone to worry. if i could jus drop dead, wouldnt it be good? i wouldnt have to burden myself or anyone else. be sad for the moment, live happily ever after. life will be much better w/o me. nobody else would be hurt. i feel utterly useless. i nvr seem to be doin the right thing. i can even screw up simple things. i have bad memory. so y cant i jus sleep for the last time n nvr wake up ever again? im more stressed out den wad seems to be a carefree me. who jus relax all day long. im not who n wad u all think i m. nobody understands me. i sacrifice secretly in the dark for the benefit of them. im more lonely den anybody else. i've to keep everything to myself. i cant afford to worry them. i've to drag on wif dis burden till the day i die. so y cant i jus end my journey here? y m i forced to such misery? it may not be physically stressing like being starved or being frozen or being burnt. but its mentally stressing, im not sure how much more can i take b4 i breakdown.
u may ask me wads wrong, my reply is, "nth". convincin enuff for u to trust me. but its cos i cant bear to let anyone take the load for me.
so now, im gonna sleep n hope i dun wake up.
nitz all~

posted by hahaha @ 12:25 AM



Tuesday, December 2, 2008

damn, im jobless

Probably a long post 2day, to summarize some of the days which i didnt blog
I'm now officially n unofficially jobless ._."
y? simple, cos i lost both my official n unofficial job
my official job at the IT fair is over, n my unofficial job at my aunt's place is over as well
sad ya? ._."
means no more extra income D=

ah well, wad sucks more is tt i got my new hard disk (yes! finally!!!) but, omgwtfbbq sauce it cant work Dx needa format it 1st, if suay, need buy new power supply, need my bro to come back frm tekong again to help me format it siol...... saddddd!!!!!

kinda late, but, prom night was a blast
probably my last time breaking for dis batch of students, zul n me went up stage n started breaking, was awesome man, all the stunts we knew, all came out, or at least most of em >_>"
too bad i didnt take any photos n i dunno if anyone took any photos or vids, if anyone has them, pls send them to me, not neccesarily me up stage, but nice shots from prom night.


let's see, wad else did i miss out...
hmmm....
oh yea, IT fair, total revenue for logitech....


53K!!!

OMFGWTF!!!! 7K AWAY FROM COMMISSION!!!!

NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!


so my basic pay will be $200 for the 4 days, hopefully, they may have some kind-heartedness to give some commission. (highly doubt so though)
i believe in my side, im the best salesperson over there. most of the good quality expensive stuff, im the one to sell it off 1st, den overall, probably the most expensive stuff sold.
im the 1st to sell off the G51 speakers ($249 i think), G25 ($459 on 2nd day, $429 on 3rd n 4th day), PS3 cordless mediaboard pro [PC compatible] ($119 on 1st day, $109 subsequent days) n a hell lot more, for quantity wise, the optical mouse ($13.90) 1 can even sell up to 3 of them to 1 person. PSP cover ($29.90) [all versions compatible even psp 3000] 1 person up to 10 pieces. u got tt rite, TEN PIECES!!!
2 webcams ($25.90 ea), few headsets (ranging frm $19.90~$65) per person sometimes, yea, its me alrite! i sold a hell load of quantity n quality stuff, aftr the show, "u were excellent" by some of my managers :DDD not to the rest~ :P
im damn good~
too bad i 4got to get the numbers of my new colleagues (hey, its good to make frens, especially since there r 3 cute gals over there =P, k shuddup XD)
pay will come in like, 14 days aftr the show? >_>"


oh yea, i jus joined dis new wushu place, traditional style, best part, free ;D
dis pai is wong feihong's pai, damn cool yea? :DDD
dun mess wif me XDDDD
but now i've gotta learn lion dance frm them 1st
lion dance is harder den i tot, the head is relatively heavy, n oso, the steps mus be reali acurate, usin wushu techniques >_>"
im surprised <_<"

speaking about wushu, 2day jus watched kung-fu panda >_>"
YES IM FRIGGIN OUTDATED!! SO SHUDDUP! NOBODY ASKED FOR


YOUR FUCKING OPINION >_>"

so funny siol XD
watch liao makes me more motivated to train wushu!
LOL!
XDDD


k, so now, im stuck at home, nth to do, gonna rot myself to death, no extra income, no job.

FUCKING ICA! GIMME TT FUCKING CALL SO I CAN

FUCKING HELL GET TO WORK N GET MY FUCKING

EXTRA INCOME U SON OF BITCHES!!! FUCK URSELF

HAPPY N GIMME A DAMN JOB!!!

so yea, currently im fucking hell bored to the fucking core of my mind wif nth better to do in dis pathetic fucking house, gonna be glued to my com the whole fucking day, playing tt same few fucking games till my bro finally fuckingly gets back fuckingly help me to fucking hell format my fucking new hard disk, so i can finally fuckingly use my new fucking hard disk which he says can only be fucking hell be formated only on his fucking com which of cos fucked up cos he doesnt fuckingly entrust me wif his com, due to some fucking coincidences when i fuckingly use his com to fucking hell play some games he himself fuckingly play, his com gets fucked up soon after. feel free to count the amt of times i used the word fuck including this.

haiz....

the results of boredom.
i seriously got nth better to do.
n seriously, dis family is rather fucked up, no fucking brains, doesnt use fucking common sense, says i dun have common sense, THEY ARE THE ONES WHO DUN HAVE ANY FUCKING COMMON SENSE!

they brought me up dis way anyway, reap wad u sow bitches! wad i do makes sense, while wad u all do doesnt. helpin those who needs smth not as urgently or importantly as compared to one who needs it more. fucked up? yea i agree too. some minor family conflicts. seriously fucked up.

seem to be writing a compo over here o_O
ah well, i did say it will probably be a long post >_>"

den again, i should end dis, cos i've got nth much else to blog about.
jus somehow feels kinda weird, holidays, exams r over, nth to study, dying of boredom w/o a job. pathetic family who doesnt use their brains. cant get outta house. family dun allow me to get outta house n at the same time, dun wan me to look for a job. stupid eh?
wan me to rot to death? go ahead, if u wan i can show u tt i can literally rot myself to death at dis rate.

zzzz......

4get it, im gonna go sleep =.="
nitz all =.="







posted by hahaha @ 12:32 AM



Sunday, November 2, 2008

bored

so long since i last blogged =X
no time cos of O's lahh... actually is lazy cos of O's... JUST ABOUT 1 MORE WEEK B4 I CAN FINALLY RESUME MY NORMAL LIFE!!!
haizzzzz.... WO YAO JIAN CHI XIA QU!!!!
i'll post bout the O's aftr my O's ;DD
realized one thing though >.>" prom night is on 21nov which is a fri, ZOMFG!!!
YESH!! i paid $45!! n im gonna go there n waste my time there, tt means i cant enjoy good food D=
ah well, nvm, i'll have to make use of the open floor den +_+!! although i didnt have any intention of doing so in the 1st place >_>"
hmm... dress code: smart formal
shit...i dun have any smart formal clothes, onli the shoes .___."
looks like i needa go shopping for some smart formal clothes >_>"
at least i can use them nxt time in case of such events again or maybe performances.

lazy to continue to blog le =O
nitz all.



posted by hahaha @ 12:09 AM



Monday, October 13, 2008

Rawr!

RAWR!! havent blogged for quite awhile n heres wad happening to me
im bleedy sick, fever, cough, block ear, bodyache, headache, muscleache, wtf????
i cant believe i managed to go thru the entire graduation ceremony w/o collapsing....
somebody help me!!! O's sci practical is on friggin thurs. i had better recover by den, else im screwed up.

Graduation day 2day.... sianz... everybody is leaving, nxt yr, im gonna be alone again. i've not been in the same class wif anyone for more den 4 yrs.

Despite these bad things, hopefully, good things will follow

Dead tired. Gonna collapse anytime now.
Time for me to sleep. Jus took my meds.....
zzzz....

nitz all~
peace out~

posted by hahaha @ 10:40 PM



Sunday, September 28, 2008

And so he's back

帰りました、お兄さんです。でも、今日は同じです。今は一寸むんだいがある。俺は一体想いだ?誰の為に、この世界が存在?全然わからない。
俺は今疲れたです。
お休みなさい、皆さん。

posted by hahaha @ 11:29 PM




Last Day!: Oh no! Good or Bad?

hmmm...
its the last day for my bro before he comes tml arnd the evening time frm tekong. Been wondering. Good or Bad? will it be good if he came back? o_O weird. i wanted him to come back n now i dun O_o who cares? ;DD
bored!!!!! imma nth t3h better to do
let me test out some html crap o_O




I call this "The Game Of Boredom"



posted by hahaha @ 12:10 AM



Saturday, September 27, 2008

Days of Darkness: Day 12

lazy to post anything .__."
nitz~

posted by hahaha @ 1:52 AM



Friday, September 26, 2008

Day of Darkness: Day 11: Almost there

IMMA BORED!! LOL!! for some reason i was pissed o_O i've got no idea wad, but w/e ;DD its t3h ub3r bor1ng 2day. night study was bleedy noisy again O_o couldnt do much again 2nite .__." bleedy idiots so noisy o_O.
hahs
go sleep le, nitz~
jia you to all doing exams!!
peace out~

posted by hahaha @ 12:02 AM



Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Days of Darkness: Day 9: BORED!!!

Boring~
Everbody has been asking me how the hell did i bleedy improve my maths grade by so much o_O
so bored >_>"
uber bored!!!
bored
bored
bored
sianz... EL got C6 >_>" wtf? screwed up summary totally
haizzz.....
im still bored...

jia you all who r takin O's n oso to those not takin O's
aiya, jiayou everybody for exams.

hahaha

nitz~
peace out~!!

posted by hahaha @ 11:51 PM



Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Day of Darkness: Day 9

Boring Day. Got back ma eng, sickening compo 17/30 nia o_O, wtf? i expected a bare min of 19!!! RAWR!!!! at least i should pass overall with summary n oral ;DD
bro called 2nite, he had 2 jabs on his arms! BOTH AT THE SAME TIME! LOL!!
nth much lar 2day. den night classes, darn grayson! took my mp3!! den the library uber noisy!! left at about 8.30 >_>" sianxationzzzzz....

haha
i go sleep le lah

nitz~
peace out all!!

posted by hahaha @ 11:19 PM




Days Of Darkness: Day 8

GREAT DAY!!! WAHAHAHAHA!!! let's start frm the beginning of the day. got back physical geog paper, sucked
qn3= 10m
qn4= 10m
total 20/50.
reali rounded off.
haha,followin tt, i got a-maths paper 2! yes!!! i got overall of B4!!
OMG!!! 5 GRADES JUMP FROM AN F9 STUDENT!!!
Mr Ng came in, i was like "AYE CHER! I PASSED MY A-MATHS!!"
he was like "...." he didnt wanna say anything, reluctantly, he finally said
"It's because you put in effort, tt's y u passed. I congradulate u."
LOL! TIO OWNED!!! everytime call me drop a-maths! look wat ya get sucka!!!!
followin tt i got e-maths paper 2. overall jus abit more to A2!!! all my careless mistakes!!! i could've gotten an A2!!! RAWR!!!
hahaha!
night studies was nice! jus tt it'd be nicer wif some vodka ;DD
call me a vodka addict! but i drink in moderation!!! LOL! im sure u wun believe me >_>"
BUT ITS TRUE!!!
Finally finished the new blogskin too!! it was quite alot of trouble converting Xanga format into Blogger format =X
time to sleep now! tired le!!
Nitz all!!
Peace out~!!
Relax & Chill!!!

posted by hahaha @ 12:28 AM



Sunday, September 21, 2008

Day Of Darkness: Day 7

Day 7
Bored!!
im bored!!! nth to do... nth much 2day.... slept alot, n im planning to do smth stupid.
changed the blogskin by request. leave comments about it ;D thx

gonna sleep now
nitz all
peace out~

posted by hahaha @ 11:39 PM




Days Of Darkness: Day 6

Day of Darkness: Day 6: I'm Halfway through ;D

Nth much 2day, cept i had to do testimonials for 3 ppl D; (me n 2 other ppl). At least i get to get a free meal for one of em. L. tan so uber lazy siala >_>" cant even do her own job properly .__." haizz......bro called 2day n didnt have time to tok to me (he's down to his 2nd and last spare battery) D; tml nite he's gonna call. HE HAD BETTER!!! RAWR!!!!
nth much le.... gonna sleep le
nitz all
peace out~


Days of Darkness: Day 6 : I'm Halfway there

posted by hahaha @ 12:23 AM



Saturday, September 20, 2008

Days of Darkness: Day 5

Day 5 of the days of darkness.
Everything seems pretty much fine. i got back cheena prelims and i passed! nearly fail cos of li jie wen da ._." 26.5/70? >_>" wtf? haha, compo n letter writing ish 27/40 n 11.5/20 respectively <_<. style="font-family:Verdana;">;D saw grapes 2day, drank coke zero 2day, all of these reminded me of my bro, his fav food D; poor him, cant get to eat his fav food. didnt get to tok to him on the phone 2nite n last nite. last nite cos he couldnt call n 2nite cos i came back late >_>" haiz...
well tts about it, day 5 of the days of darkness.

peace out~

posted by hahaha @ 12:13 AM



Thursday, September 18, 2008

Days of Darkness: Day 3-4

Yo everybody! 4got to blog ytd >_>" everything seems to be ok now.
I got back my e-maths paper 1 ytd, 57/80 sianz..... made so much careless mistakes. Then got back A-maths paper 1 2day, 51/80... sianz too..... i had so much more confidence >_>" i gonna gg on paper 2 liao..... Haha, nth much

peace out~

Days of Darkness: Day 3-4

posted by hahaha @ 3:39 PM



Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Days of Darkness: Day 2

Day 2- Everything seems to be settling down now. 2day's A-math paper was hard >_>"
while doing my paper i was wondering if my bro was missing his "NASI SET B" LOL! onli he understands i assume. n he called again at nite. 3am go collect gun =O. the nxt time i go into tekong. i'd probably get punished for not being able to wake up >_>".
Thats it for now

Day 2 of the Days of Darkness

posted by hahaha @ 10:49 PM



Monday, September 15, 2008

Blog Revival II: Beginning of the Days of Darkness

I told myself i wouldn't. But i couldn't help it. The day has arrived n he has gone. I couldn't even see him off cos i had exams. For the past few weeks, it seemed like it's gonna be a small thing. "Just 2 weeks" is wad i tot to myself. It was a small matter. But today, i was wrong. I always wanted him to go asap, but last night, i couldnt help but cry. It's embarrassing to say it. It hurts most when u always wanted someone to go away, but when the time has finally arrived, u realized how much u actually loved tt person. It hurts. How long can i last without him before he returns. My brother that is. Without him, everything seems to be falling apart. Isolation is wad best describes my feeling. I can't believe im crying over this. It's such a small thing. But, it's cos i love him so much, i can't bear him to leave me. Even if it's just 2 weeks. And so, the days of darkness has begun.

Day 1 of the days of darkness.

posted by hahaha @ 12:23 PM



Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Blog revival

just thought i'd revive this blog, spent quite abit of time on it so y dun i jus revive it ya? it'd be nice if wang lao shi came back and saw that the blog is still alive... yesterday was my b'day n it sucked... probably one of the worst day of my life. I woke up in the morning, n there wasnt breakfast, waited till 12+ den food came, so i had brunch >_> nth much either, ppl wished me happy b'day but my family seems to hav totally 4gotten about it. Only my mother and my sister did, probably cos she saw the date on the laptop she was usin n i jus so happened to go downstairs. My sister wished me too as my mother told her to, she is still small afterall. At nite didnt reali hav a filling dinner either, soon i became hungry... lookin fer smth to eat, n my mother said i ate too much although i ate way much lesser den i usually eat. so i jus made a cup of milo for myself n kept myself full enuff to last me till i slept early. Computer didnt function properly either, was raining, made me didnt wanna break. Drank the can of sake josh bought for me, nice but no kick...15% alcohol, didnt even keep my body warm. Prefered the champaigne i drank at my aunt's b'day... Now a-maths hw... lost it, calling josh to help me photocopy, needa rush thru it, 10 questions a day n i probably will finish it by nxt week :D at least tts smth good for a bad thing. Hopefully everything goes smoothly... Tts about it.
Peace out~

Bboy Itzy

posted by hahaha @ 1:41 PM



Monday, September 10, 2007

周记

大家好。这次写的是假期的周记。我想星期五是我最有趣的一天。这可能对大家来说是没有兴趣的事,可是对我来说可是一个比较难忘的一回事。在早上,我到学校去上科学课。在这段时间是没有什么特别。是到了中午的时候,我去到 "Suntec City" 看一个 "Gamer's Convention Center [麻烦王老师再次帮忙]" 那里有我最喜欢的游戏。不久后,我遇到了我的哥哥和表哥。我就从那边参加一个比赛,是我很喜欢的一个电脑游戏,叫做 "Counter-Strike"。轮到我的时候,我的对手是刚巧我的哥哥。我的哥哥已经打败了几个对手,连我的表哥也被他大败。可是我哥哥的下一个对手打败了他。真可惜没有赢到什么奖金。过后,我们就看到了别人表演舞蹈,从一个电脑游戏来跳。他们一跳完舞就有了一个跳舞比赛。我哥哥和表哥都叫我参加,我就只好参加。第一部分是跟着其中的演员来跳。我差一点就输给了一位小妹妹。还好我能够坚持到英文叫做的 "Freestlye"。这可以让我跳我所要跳的舞,就在这时候,我就跳了霹雳舞。我在跳得的时候,其他参赛者就站到一边看着我跳。知道他们自己已经输了。过后就赢了奖金。
我现在就到此为止。希望大家有个快乐的星期!

posted by hahaha @ 9:43 PM



Monday, July 30, 2007


大家好!今天虽然有点倒霉,可是,也有好运发生。今天是"busker's festival"(再次请王老师教导一下)。我和其他两个人一起表演霹雳舞,轮到我的时候,每个人叫得很大声,比其他更大声。可惜全班只有三位人看到。其他人被老师 给留住做测验。最早的是我刚演完后才来。表演之前,之前,不小心受伤了。应该得多小心一点。明天也有"lunchtime concert"被华乐去表演古筝。有时真搞不懂是幸运或倒霉。现在就到此为止了,又得睡觉。大家晚安。

posted by hahaha @ 9:09 PM



Wednesday, July 25, 2007


今天好开心,是我妹妹的生日。出去跟家人和阿姨和表哥们庆祝她的生日。她一转眼已经四岁了。时间过得真快,如果不珍惜时间的话,恐怕来不及改过。后悔一辈子。即使今日有多么好,好,总会有不幸的事会发生的,就是今天的科学小测验,恐怕是今年第二次要不及格了。明天要过多一个很快的一天。得睡了。大家晚安!

posted by hahaha @ 10:41 PM



Tuesday, July 17, 2007


今天真的要被最不讲理的老师给气死。她把我的英文理解问答给弄不见,她还要我把从新在做一遍,根本不承认自己犯了错误。一直不讲理,她已经把几位同学的书给弄不见。今天还威胁我们说要把副校长给请上来。她这么一说的时候,我并不害怕,反而更加开心,能够让我投诉她所犯的错误。可惜,副校长没来。全班都很希望她会被炒鱿鱼,或又事情发生下一天不能够来学校。现在不谈这件事,讲了又没用,现在只好等到有一天她得到报应! 今天真是令人失望。今天应该跟我的朋友见面炼一下霹雳舞,可惜他是不不同校被老师留住,不能来炼。 只好跟另一个朋友炼。回到家也没什么有趣的事情发生了。今天就到此为止了。 大家晚安。

posted by hahaha @ 9:35 PM



Tuesday, July 10, 2007


哈哈,我终于做好了! 做到很累了。今天真好玩,我的朋友今天来到我家靠近然后教了他和他的朋友们"b-boy",或 "breakdance" 断裂舞 (如果是这么叫的,请王老师帮我改一下 =D) 他们学得比我教的另一组的学生快了几倍。现在很晚了,我应该睡觉了,要不然明天会迟到。

大家晚安

posted by hahaha @ 10:34 PM



Wednesday, July 4, 2007


让我来介绍自己。我名是陈宗阳,在读培德中学,今年十五岁在中三。家里有一位哥哥,一位妹妹,和父母亲。家里也养狗, 一只很可爱的小狗。

posted by hahaha @ 6:10 PM



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